im really really miss her :'(

68 days more..

aq kne bersabo dlm 68 days
bru 68 days..xkn xdpt tnggu kan kan ??
kan 10 tahun lg kan
aq ad hadiah special for her
10 tahun lebih lma drp
68 days nie..
aq snggup tnggu 'dia'
sbb 'dia' ckp
'dia snggup tnggu aq dlm 10 tahun lg'
tu la buat aq lebih sayang kt 'dia'

tp,
bru 1 hari berlalu
aq really really miss her :'(
aq rsa 'dia' pon sma ;)

im really sorry :'(

i know, syg need me just right know
but i cannot stand by your sides
that my mistake...

many mistakes that i have done at u
but u still forgive..
but for today
i think with my big mistake
that i have done at u just right know
for this time u cannot forgive me..right ? :'(
but i never give up

i know,
im not perfect
but i wanna be perfect guy
for u..
i hope u can give me
chance to me for
being the perfect guy for u <3

ProMise ..

i always love u, syg
i cannot let u go
from my side...
i want u be part of
my deep heart
my heart not perfect
without u, syg.

i want her to know
that i will sacrifice my life
with her..and
i will protect her n
i cannot let who touch her or
hurting her..
if that happen,
i promise !!
that person will regret all his life..

i cannot forgive myself forever
if i make her cry again..
so, i want make u always smile
happy, laughing..
i promise with myself
i never repeat my big mistake all my life again..
i want u happy when in my sight

i want her to know that...
i always thinking about her
every second i thinking about her
i feel sad if i do not thinking about her :'(
i feel very very grateful when she said to me
' awk, saya sayang kat awk'
' awk, awk da ad semua ciri2 laki yg sye suke'
' saya sanggup tnggu 10 tahun lg for ...(hehe, only her know about this word )

the most important that
i want her to know is..
in my deep heart
only u can fulfill the space in my heart
no one can fulfill except her ( my beloved girl ) <3

SYG, I ALWAYS LOVE U
SYG, I WANT U LIVING BESIDE ME
SYG, I WANT U BE PART OF MY BREATHING
SYG, I WANT U ALWAYS THINKING ABOUT ME
SYG, I WANT LIVE WITH U
SYG, I WANT U ACCEPT ME FOREVER
SYG, PLEZ DON'T LEAVE ME :(
SYG, I DON'T WANT U CRY AGAIN CUZ I CANNOT SEE
MY GIRL IN SAD
SYG, I WILL TAKE CARE U WHEN UR NOT WELL O
ANYTHING BAD HAPPEN TO U.. I ALWAYS ACCEPT U
IN MY LIFE
SYG, BE BRAVE N ALWAYS STRONG WITH OBSTACLES THAT FACE U
AND I WANT U TO KNOW THAT WE FACE THAT OBSTACLES
BY TOGETHER..U AND ME..

x suke ...-.-'

pphal kalo ad msalah skit je
dia msti ambek tindakan yg kurang bijaK..
bkn nk bncng lok2..
dia slalu ckp 'kte xde pape'..
bg awk sng la ckp cm2..tp,
bg sye ia sgt ssh nk menerimanya..
sbbnya..erm..
koz, aq da syg banget kt dia
aq hrap dia prasan la..amin..

kan best kalo ape yg dia mnx drp aq
aq boley kasi je..
dia mnx break o anything la..
tp mslahnya
aq mmg xnk break ngn dia
aq seda spe diriku bg dia :'(
aq mmg annoying, xsmart (abis humble r)..haha
tp tu mmg reality dow ..

bg aq xde ppe yg bole
menghalang percintaan kte org..
melainkan yg Maha Esa..
xthu la bg si dia :/

smua org ad prasaan..
sye ad, awk ad..
so, better kte jga prasaan kte sma2..
kalo awk disakiti o watevala
awk just inform kt sye..
sbb i is your boyfriend (balak)..
bkn kayu balak..okay..
haha.. :)
sye xske kalo prasaan sye dipermainkan..
sma jugak ngn awk..
kalo sye ad mainkan prasaan awk,
awk bgthu je au..
tp,....ini fact
sye xkn mainkan prasaan org yg sye syg
plez trust me :'(

i want u to know that
im really love u okay..
lpas ni jgn la slh anggap
sye xkn f.i.l ngn org len
sbb 'hati' sye kt awk..
selagi awk keep it,
selagi tu sye xkn f.i.l dgn girl len..
plez trust me okay..btw,,
i never force u to trust me but..
u must trust on me..IF can :(

thnx awk :'(

sye thu diri sye x perfect bg diri awk
sye mmg xlyk utk mencintai awk
n sye mmg xlyk mndapat cinta murni awk tu
sbb sye ni bkn la type laki yg awk cari kan ?? :'(

tp tu semua sye tolak tepi..
sye xpeduli semua tu
yg penting for me is
to falling love with u
until i die..
no matter what,
i cannot let u go from my heart <3.

sye mmg slalu buat awk mrah
buat awk sedih,
tp semua tu lumrah..
msti yg kna mrah, then msti ad org yg kne pujuk..
so, it boley kukuhkan lg our relationship.

sye pasti awk
sedar yg sye syg giler2 kt awk..
sye pasti awk still syg kt sye kan ?
sye xpasti knp awk slalu buat sye mcm ni..
tp yg pastinya
sye akn mencintai awk 4 ever,, no matter what..
sye cintai awk dgn seadanya..
xkira la awk nakal , prngai cm dak2..
tp im still happy...
cuz u also make me hepy n laugh with pngai dak2 awk tu..
tu sye beruntung sgt dpt kapel ngn awk..hehe
time sye tension,
dgn dgr suare awk je..
smua tension sye hilng,.
wlaupon sye letih o injury,
dgn tgk muka awk yg comel tu,
hilng everything..

i want u to know
that i still love u
no matter u said o anything la..

sye xprnh pon terlintas utk
break o anything ngan awk..
cuz i cannot do it..
im love u so much <3..

seronok + letih

abis bola, aq tros blk umh
utk bersiap g alamanda..
da lewat giler, aq pon bwk la moto laju2
xkira la ape nk terjadi..sbb aq da janji ngn si dia
da lewat giler dow !!
nasib bek smpai umh dgn selamat..

smpai umh tros aq mndi n bersiap2..
ad lg msalah tu..
aq nk g alam, xnk bwk moto
cuz...hehe..aq nk balik ngn si dia sma2..
aq nk tebus balik pe yg terjadi sblm ni..
slh bas dow..aduhai,, segann giler dow
msalah tu ialah kwn aq ..
aq sruh dia anta aq kt alam nek kete..
aq call dia, tgk2 dia still kt sna lagii
org nk cpt ni sbb da lewat giler ..
ish, nasib bek sempat..

aq smpai je alam, aq tros cri si dia
cri2 xjunpe..then aq call la si dia
tgk2 dia kt tndas..adoi !!
buat letih jer..da la tgh letih n injured
xpe, junpe ngn si dia keletihan n kesakitan
yg aq alami, ley hilang begitu sje..btol ni..aq xtipu ok..

aq kesian btol kt si dia,,
sbb tgk cite 2 kali..
cite harry potter ..
cite tu kul 6..time tu bru kul 5.30
then, aq ajak la si dia mkn lu..
kte org mkn pizza pulak..
sbb dia ckp, dia xpuas mkn pizza ..
so aq decide tuk mkn pizza la..
supaya dia puas..
sbb tu la aq ajak dia mkn kt pizza tu
mission aq nk buat dia puas mkn pizza..
hehe..akhirnya,, mission aq complete dow..dia puas..

abis mkn, kteorg tros g tgk wyg..
aq mmg xsngke yg dia takut ngn ular..huhu
tp aq kesian giler kt si dia..
dia dlm kesejukan n sakit kepale lak tu..
im so sorry syg :'(
im so sorry busuk
im so sorry nyanyok

ok la..btw, aq sgt happy smlm..
tu la moments yg aq xkn lupekan
thnx for everything syg <3

tension

pd hari sbtu,
iaitu smlm..tournement bola sepak berlngsung..
tension btol la
rsa mcm nk 'bunuh diri je'
tp tension aq hilang
setelah aq call someone yyg aq syg banget..

dgn dgr suare dia je
ley hilang tension aq..
mmg beruntung lar aq dpt si dia..huhu

tp dtg blk tension aq stelah aq
menangung keklhan..
disbbkan pasukan aq sendiri..xde team work lngsung..geram btol la..

tension bercampuran dgn kemarahan ,
aq tros ke toilet utk
membasuh muka n ad la bende len yg aq buat..hehe

after aq kuar drp toilet,
aq tros call si dia..
aq call dia xangkat..perghh..
bertmbh pulak tension n kemarahanku ni..
mula2 aq da decide utk bla je
xnk men bola da..tp..
dgn bantuan cegu yg aq sanjungi
iaitu cegu salida, dia telah memujukku
dgn mengugut aq..'awk balik, cegu balik gak'..
aq terkaku jap..sbb..
xsngka begitu syg cegu kt aq..hehe
then aq decide..
aq cancel utk bla..

after that, aq call la si dia..
akhirnya..dia angkat pon fon..
semua kemarahan n tension aq hilang
setelah dgr suare si dia..
thnx syg <3

aq tros kan perjuangan aq
kteorg lyk ke semi final je..
sbb klh ngn team 11 A..
1-0 je pon..
btw, congrate la kwn2 ku
lumayan la korg ea..dpt rm3000..
congrate..

tp yg aq pling ske ialah
si dia cabar aq tuk dpt kan 3 goal..
tgk2 aq dpt 3 goal..'
then si dia nk kasi hadiah kat..hehe
xsabo2 la..

ok la..aq mnx maaf sgt dow kwn2..
sbb terlalu emotional smlm..
cuz aq tension giler dow..
i hope u guyz understand aq ea..